What exactly is “the healers trap”? It is a phrase I coined after years of working as a “healer” and working with hundreds of other “healers” at the school. If we have the answers and can heal others, why do we still feel we need healing? The trap is that once you start, you do not stop. You constantly feel the need to learn more, do more, give more and be more. There is no stillness. There is a compulsion for movement and growth. Here lies the problem. Without firm and solid roots, you cannot grow strong and stable.
You are blades of grass in a field instead of the strong tree. Grass is beautiful and very important. What happens to it though? It is small compared to the tree. It gets cut down when somebody thinks it is grown too high. Most do not cut down a big strong tree; instead they find shade, beauty and comfort in it. One blade of grass in the field looks lonely and like it is going to die. A tree in a field looks like a survivor and a place for others to rest. One blade of grass in a field of grass gets lost and although feels like it is one with the field, we all strive for acceptance of our individuality. Tree or grass? Do you want to be a tree but are planting grass seeds instead?
How can you tell if you are in a Healers Trap?
Do you sometimes get tired after a healing? Giving away your energy.
Has anybody ever cancelled a meeting and you are a bit relieved? Should have said no to the session to begin with and needed rest.
Do you ask the person how it was? Poor confidence and self-doubt.
Do you suffer from poor self-esteem? If you think you are not meeting expectations all the time, poor self esteem is natural.
Are you shy? Insecurities
Have you been ridiculed by others for your healing beliefs? Cuts you down.
Have you felt so hurt by some and their reaction to your healing beliefs that you have started to avoid them or consider them energy drainers? You are giving your energy away. They cannot take what you do not give.
Do you have more than one healing modality training? There has not been one that seems to work for everybody all the time. Including you!
Are you longing for more? You are not full.
Do you know you are connected to the Oneness of the universe, all but still at times feel alone? There is still a feeling of separation, but not sure from what.
Suffer from anxiety? We all feel anxious when we feel alone and unwanted.
Suffer from depression? Who would not get depressed feeling this way?
Feel guilty and responsible for others even when you know you are not responsible? Undue pressure on yourself.
Do you think about your mistakes over and over again? Compulsive negativity towards self.
Do you let other’s words hurt you for hours, days or even years after? Inability to let go.
Are you tired a lot of the time? Adrenal glands always on.
Do you suffer muscle pain? The heart is being ignored and unheard.
Do you have a hard time falling asleep at night? Mind controls you and you cannot stop thinking.
Do you crave sugar? Your body is desperate to feel good so sugar releases chemicals in the brain that make you feel good, and it is worth the crash after you feel.
Are you surprised you can relate with this list? The question is now what you do with this knowledge? How can you heal others when it is breaking you? You can sit here and read this and feel that you feel these things sometimes but you have been trained and love giving to others. Of coarse you do not suffer from this, there must be a mistake. There is. Just one.
You don’t have to hurt to heal.
Trust me, I understand. I have been searching for a long time. I was in this Healers Trap and am so grateful that I have just found my way out of the labyrinth. Don’t believe me that I suffered from it? I am going to list my certificates and training. Angel Medium, Past Life Healer, Quantum Hypnotherapist, Qi Gong Practitioner, Akashic Record Healer, Colour Therapist, Crystaline Angel Healer, Delegate of the Light, Advanced Angel Practitioner, Chakra Healer, Trance Healer, Psychic Medium and there are more. I forget them. That is sad. I forget what I thought would be the answer. How does that happen? I was left hungry.
I am now full. I have ended my search after training for three years and will never pick up another training manual or take a class that starves me more. If you were hungry and somebody offered you a plate of food but said you will be full for 5 minutes but will be hungrier after… would you take out your fork? I have found peace. I have found it and so excited about it that I want to share it with you all and have taken amazing steps to do this. If you find yourself connecting with this blog and want to feel full and complete, stay tuned. I am going to offer to help. I am going to share my plate because it is never ending.
What if you could do what you love by helping people and not get tired, hurt, made fun of, have 100% success rate, feel safe and secure, feel happy, get rid of anxiety and depression, sleep well at night, lose weight not gain it, and feel a true place of acceptance and peace? What if you could give it to yourself?
Stay tuned. More details to come.
Namaste,
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